Every time it surprises me...

I work very hard to pursue a dream or idea that sits in the back of my mind. When it is far away like the sky I am filled with a burning desire to grasp it, to have it, to breath it. I work harder and harder to make it true, but when i see it close and coming closer and closer, I start moving away from it. It is better to keep it as a dream? What am I afraid of? Failure? Change? Insecurity? What is beyond it?
This mind like to play games: cat chasing the mouse and then mouse chasing the cat...

Stream

Stream starts small with a tiny flow from the ground. It searches and follows the path, its path. It is no stagnant. It grows and widens with no resistance or force. It finds the way to overcome each obstacle along the way and flows forward steadily and calmly. Sometimes I wonder if I can be like a stream and take its way to overcome challenges in my life. Can I be steady and calm day to day, minute to minute? How can I just be without wanting to change me, you, and all that is around?